You Wish

It's okay to be sad.
It's okay to cry.

But it hurts.
It hurts when someone you love left you.
It makes you realise that you're not good enough.
I am not, indeed.

It hurts when people give up on you.
They don't need you,
you don't even remember when is the time you ignore them.

It hurts you can be what you want to be.
It hurts, thinking what you shouldn't have to, but you did.
It hurts, talking about future, looking for the tiny point in blurred area.

People will forget you eventually.
Some of them stay,
some of them can't stand.

You always trying to pull yourself.
Do things they think you cannot do,
because that's the only way to prove your self.

But do people care?
Do people realise that you do your best just to please them?
Just to make their proud and happy with you?

At this point you'd prefer to be blindfolded, so you can't see reality.
Listening to music and shit through your headphones so you can't hear any cliche words.
You're running. Escaping. Hiding.
You're wishing that you can disappear.
Laying in your bed pretending to be somewhere else.
Place where no one judge you, where no one know you.
Living with stranger, do things I know I will be happy with it.
Do not think the consequences.
Laugh with them, because we know we had same shit that we had went through.

Yeah, you're wishing that.

You're wishing there's someone who shrugs your shoulders,
puts arms around you, strokes your hair.
Hug you and say "Everything's gonna be okay. I'm here."
Then we remain silent. 
"It's okay to cry."
You wet your both clothes with tears.
"I'm sorry your t-shirt is wet, this is embarrassing."
Tears of sadness, tears of relief.

"Don't keep it by yourself, if you want to tell me, just go for it. I'm listening."
"No, I'm not ready"
"Okay.."

"Feeling better?"
"A little bit.."

You wish that there's someone who says that he/she needs you.
"Don't ever go, I need you."
"No, you don't. You can find someone better."
"I need you." "We need you."